I'm leaving soon!

There’s this slightly irregular wind tonight. I guess it’s the dawning of something we all know is happening: change. From time to time, the massive gale strikes the house, causing the windows to shudder, and the rest of the structures gives, just a little, but not enough to cause any alarm.

In my bedroom, I have a full view full of both of my neighbors. It’s been so long that it almost seems mundane now, that our relationships have grown predictable and stale. Much is life when you stay in one place long enough.

I’m not complaining, I swear.

In less than three weeks I will be heading to Argentina to see my ex. I’m excited for a number of reasons, the primary one being him. I know, we have moved on, I mean, we have no other alternative but to start our lives again, anew, with a vigor that silences any doubts of our choices.

There’s this small voice inside of me that still thinks it might work. It whispers to me to fall in love with Buenos Aires and want nothing more than to live there. I see this new existence, with my ex, who gets back together with me because I am willing to live in the same country with him, without fear. It’s rather romantic when you think about it.

I’m sure it will be different than that, but a man can dream, can he not? The upside is, no matter what the outcome, I am traveling to a new world, an entirely different culture, for 24 days!!! That in itself is enough for me. It’s enough to generate some excitement in my life, again.

I will try and write in my blog when I have a change and upload a picture of two. I will be without a computer so I hope to find one in a café or use Matt’s computer.

Wish me luck!

BA

I write to you know in a world of unknowns. The global economy is taking a dive: Canadians, Americas, and people from all over the world are losing their jobs. There’s a lot of fear mongering right now. There are a lot of people who are unsure about their future. All I can say is: welcome to life.

A lot has changed since I have last updated this blog but a lot has stayed the same, unfortunately.

I fell in love again. Well, I can’t say again because it’s not something that happens to me that often. Maybe the three bout of love since entering this existance. He’s leaving, though. Or he has left. I can’t quite figure out when he is taking the plunge.

He’s going to Buenos Aires to study med school. A dream of his and something in encouraged. I had to let him go so that he could follow his dreams and it saddens me. Even if I wanted to be selfish, I don’t think it would have mattered because this is one of the most determined people that I have met in my lifetime.

I’m heading down myself in April to see him for almost a month. I am thirty now and figured I need to leave the contentent at least once in my life time before I die. My world has changed, my perspective, and hell, I don’t think I’m a kid anymore. For me, it’s time to wake up and live my life as a respectable human being. Matt taught me that.

All I can tell you friends is that it’s time to live. I think I have been afraid of change all this time. I have been holding on to the familiar and predictable because I don’ t think it’s something I had when I was younger. Well, haha, I’m not that kid anymore. I’m ready....
I’ll make sure to take lots of pictures and write my blog while travelling.

XXX

PS I miss you Matt